This word settled redwood tree root deep in my mind and heart in December and January. . .
I. Knew. It. Was. The. Lord. I just knew it. . .
The whole process had a very Philippians 4:8 feel to it.
“Whatever is true, pure, lovely, commendable, excellent, praise worthy….”
Oh yeah. . .
Everywhere I turned there were blogs, articles, books, about different aspects of the word. Sermon series on Creation in Genesis… I was reminded of C. S. Lewis’ book, The Magician’s Nephew where Aslan sings Narnia into existence. . .
OVERWHELMED BY THE AMAZING BEAUTY OF IT. . . (Heavy sigh…)
By the way…I love C. S. Lewis and The Chronicles of Narnia. The Magician’s Nephew is a must read before anyone ever reads The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. . . Just trust this 4th grade reading teacher on this issue. . . truly. . .
In understanding the impact and design for this word . . . CREATE. . . I thought. . .
Well maybe it’s about attempting to do something fresh in the new year. Stretching and growing in something I have not tried before. . . I was SO ready for this. . .
I wanted to cast aside the same-ness – the routine – and open myself up to fresh adventures…
So with two months under my belt, what have I created?
I have created more time to investigate… to breathe. . .
I am creating physical space for a place to “create.”
My clutter – physical, spiritual and emotional . . . is being dealt with, trimmed down and in some ways, eliminated. This year is a time for changing and chasing dreams and growing and CREATING. . .
Isaiah 43:19 ” Be alert, be present. I am about to do something brand-new. It’s bursting out! Don’t you see it? There it is! I’m making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands.” (Message)
BUT I have learned that CREATE looks very different than I had originally anticipated .
The Lord, in his amazing love and patience is rewiring my heart and life in ways to allow time, space, and energy for NEW and for CREATING…
It has been painful at times and again…
It doesn’t feel like I thought it would… but His path never does…
It is always so much more.
When I chose the word CREATE (and in all honesty ‘I’ had nothing to do with it), I had dreams of becoming more artistic and that is still a possibility…
But He is creating art within me, within my heart…
New desires for service and ministry are growing in this freed space.
My prayer life is breathing again in a less cluttered ME…
There are times that I feel as if the Holy Spirit is “creating havoc” in my heart by shifting things, remolding my thoughts and uncovering old insecurities.
Needless to say, CREATE looks vastly different to me today than it did on January 1st. But it’s not bad, it’s a welcomed change…
AND that is what I was looking for. . . praying for . . . marrow deep in my bones, truly . . .