Adrift in a New Year…What to do when you feel lost…

Upside Down Homelife...

Home upside down

A new year always overwhelms me…

Home and heart–upside down…

Goals? unclaimed…

Resolutions…whatever…

What did I learn in the freshly shut year?

2013 was a banner year for me personally.

1) I completed my seminary Master’s degree.
2) I turned fabulously feisty 50!
3) I became a grandmother!
4) I ended the year in South Korea holding my granddaughter in my arms…

How in the world can I possibly top that in 2014?!

Do I have to?

No. I. do. not.

And yet 2013 had its awkward moments…strained closures…uncomfortable shifts in life  and relationships that have been such an important part of my life for the last 28 years

So now I am dog paddling in 2014…

…trying to find my way through rapid moving water and murky moments. I am sluggish in  uncharted seas, but remarkably at peace because I know beyond common human sense that I am not alone.

I realize that I am just where the Lord wants me…helpless before Him and completely dependent on Him and His  all-consuming presence.

So…during those early morning hours when I find myself awake in the darkness…

lost…in fear feeling it moving very close around my heart like a vice…

this is what I do.

1) I get up…moving out of  the darkness…into the soft comforting lamp light.

2) I fix myself a cup chamomile tea and settle under a warm fuzzy blanket on the sofa.

3) I pull out my journal, my pen,  and my Bible.

4) And…I worship…in the quiet through whispers and written words on my pages and printed Word on His PAGES…drawing close to the only One who can bring Light to my darkness…soothe my anxious frightened heart and reassure my wounded spirit…

Settling into His Word…which is constant…reassuringly unchanging…breathtaking and beautiful.

2014…I want this year to be…saturated.in.HIM.

So…GOALS…?

Jesus.

Resolutions…

LOVE HIM COMPLETELY…FOLLOW HIM FAITHFULLY…

BE…PRESENT…and SERVE HIM…in empty and full moments…

2014…My Jesus Year.

Join me and others in Ann Voskamp’s the Jesus Project and memorize Words from the Gospel  of John…

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