1 Corinthians 10:23 “Everything is permissible’ –but not everything is beneficial. ‘Everything is permissible’—but not everything is constructive.” NIV
My lifelong battle with inherited thunder thighs and hips is one of the many reasons I run toward a Philippians 4:8 life.
I cannot remember I time when I haven’t resembled a pear…. a large pear…with dimples. In all honesty, I can tell you that I have coveted the petite bodies of many of my friends. I am jealous of the fact that they can wear horizontal stripes and bold prints not look like a balloon in the Macy’s Thanksgivings Day parade.
Five years ago, I lost 45 pounds on Weight Watchers, and it was amazing. I have loved the program since… tweaks and all! It works for me. I became a Weight Watcher leader, and I loved encouraging my members on their weight loss adventures. Working for Weight Watchers kept me on the straight and narrow. It was a ministry for me.
BUT… I stepped away from it to return to school. My safety net, my support system and my accountability of required weigh in’s were gone.
AND…That’s not good for someone like me, who could snarf down a package of Oreos and a bag of Stacy’s Cinnamon and Sugar Pita Chips in a heartbeat and a half.
I have to be diligent about maintaining my weight, and I haven’t for the last 6 months. My blame game is extensive… I gained weight because I was taking seminary classes, teaching, problems with my arthritis and my feet (a result of weight gain, I might add) and crazy schedules.
Yadda yadda yadda…whatever! Bottom line…I became lazy.
My discipline slipped and I landed on my large pear-shaped keester licking my orange, Cheeto-cheese covered fingers.
I found myself battling to get back to my pre-seminary original Weight Watcher goal, which meant losing about 12 pounds.
My eating habits were just a symptom of other areas of weakness in my life and my heart. My daily quiet time had become rushed and honestly, non-existent on some week day mornings. I was spending too much time on Facebook, and shopping online (even though I didn’t always buy the items…I shopped).
Empty time…wasted time… Selfish time…
My current season of quiet has become a renewed time of discipline.
Food is an idol for me, and prayerfully, I must be very deliberate about what I eat. Lysa TerKeurst’s Made to Crave series has been rich for me. This is my second reading. Dog-eared, highlighted and underlined the pages remind me of God’s desire for me to find my balance in Him and Him alone…
Today I am 5 pounds less, and I struggle. I always will, but this battle is one I can only wage on my face before the Lord.